Two Seconds In Life

2009-11-13T15:13:00.003+08:00

6 more papers to go!

Damn games make me feel like getting a ps3. Upcoming games that look superbly awesome:

Dantes Inferno, Bayonetta, Assassins Creed 2, God of war 3, The Saboteur. Not to mention the already existing awesome games, realllyy makes me wanna get a console.

2009-11-08T00:34:00.000+08:00

Too much to do, too little time.

2009-10-31T18:14:00.003+08:00

Fuck, 9 more days.

2009-10-27T00:27:00.002+08:00

With the weekends watching soccer and the whole of today out, i feel like as if A levels is already over. wtf.

2009-10-23T00:07:00.004+08:00

Looks like the god of soccer is being a bitch and comes up with all the fked up matches for Champions League day 1 AND 2 this week. SO GOD OF SOCCER BLESS US WITH GOOD RESULTS TONIGHT.

Highlight of tonight:

Roma 0.0 @ 1.975
Anderlecht 0.0 @ 2.025
Dinamo Zagreb +1.0,+1.5 @ 1.85
Werder Bremen -0.5,-1.0 @ 1.825
Sporting -1.0 @ 1.95
Benfica -0.5 @ 1.85
Panathinaikos -1.0 @ 1.63

7 Folds*2SGD to win $156.80

Total wins if all my bets pass: $231 GOD OF SOCCER AND GAMBLING BLESS US ALL

Anathema

2009-10-18T17:15:00.002+08:00

Deep inside the silence
Staring out upon the sea
The waves washing over
Half forgotten memories
Deep within the moment
Laughter floats upon the breeze
Rising and falling dying down within me

And I swear I never knew how it could be
And all this time all I had inside was what I couldn't see
I swear I never knew how it could be
All the waves washing over all that hurts inside of me

Beyond this beautiful horizon
Lies a dream for you and I
This tranquil scene is still unbroken by the rumors in the sky
But there's a storm closing in
Voices crying on the wind
This serenade is growing colder breaks my soul that tries to sing
And there's so many, many thoughts
When I try to go to sleep
Somehow now I start to feel a sort of..

Temporary peace

2009-10-16T21:58:00.005+08:00

Somehow, i think im gonna miss 08s20, more than s13.

2009-10-15T18:58:00.000+08:00

SCDF for NS.

$$

2009-10-11T23:55:00.004+08:00

Needa to buy new shoes and wallet cause my current ones are in shitty condition. I think Royal Sporting House selling the vans with Slayer on them. Didnt see any Iron Maiden the last time i went. So thats like 100 bucks + wallet. Damn. This is why i hope i can multibet my way back from $2 to $30, then to profit a few hundred bucks or some shit.

Edit: Motherfuck. Just realized my headphone spoiled yet again when i was heading to school this morning. ccbknnfuck this is my 3rd or 4th headphone to spoil in 6 months. So that will be another $100 to be spent on another damn headphone. Fuck this

The Human Disease ( or any other misanthropic, nihilistic shit )

2009-10-06T23:20:00.008+08:00

Witness the details of intoxicating defilement

Harrowing of the mind with the devils lies

As chaos entwine the sickened and damned

The passion for ignorance resonates on

Thorns of misanthropy lick putrid minds

Hysteria incarnate dance on blistered flesh

Enter benighted apostasy of a perverse nature

Feast upon the misplaced sanity drowned in sin

Under bloodied sardonic banners of death in full sway

Condemned to diabolic macabre fates eternal

Kings of the genocidal creations grows near

First word of every sentence, will probably just be what you might say after reading this.

Human. All too human.

edit: This totally doesnt suit the damn song i put. Too lazy to change it to some haunting/evil black metal shit that probably has lyrics of the above. Hahaha black metal. "Racist metal!" lololol.

2009-10-04T17:46:00.004+08:00

Man U lost, Wolves lost, Wolfsburg draw, Bayern draw, Newcastle draw, Barca won only by 1. Potential winning of $112 fly away.

God bless Arsenal, Everton, Villareal, Getafe, Sampdoria, Ajax, Sporting, Fenerbahce, CSKA, Valencia, RMadrid, Hamburg, West Ham, Roma, AC, Liverpool tonight. For $170.

2009-10-02T23:48:00.003+08:00

Kababoooom fail physics. Which means 3 H2 Us again. Time to buck the fuck up.

At least i won $25. But still negative. Hopefully can D-A or A-A for Eintracht Frankfurt game. If not then i will probably just win $3 or some shit.

Edit: Nice one won $7. +3 total now. Also, time to "wake up my idea" Gonna do econs homework for the first time in my life sometime today tomorrow, and the maths package

2009-10-01T18:24:00.002+08:00

26/60 for Econs Case Study. Need 12/25 from essay to get E and 17/25 to get D. Wtf.

GOD BLESS WERDER, EVERTON, PSV, SHAKHTAR, HAMBURG

2009-09-30T22:04:00.002+08:00

Got U for chem and maths. 1 mark away to get a B for Gp. Econs coming tomorrow, physics on friday. Not much difference from mid years and the rest of the fucking exams. Time to meet the principal again.

SO CAN REAl,MAN U,BAYERN,BORDEAUX,CSKA FUCKING WIN YOUR DAMN CPL GAMES

2009-09-29T15:03:00.002+08:00

My body clocked is damn screwed now. Overnight mahjong at Daves house after maths paper on friday (lost $36 i think) , watched soccer at robertsons on saturday (lost $20), watched sunderland wolves match on sunday, watched mancity westham match today morning.

Had s13 outing yesterday as well, dinner and birthday celebrations, and watching Phobia 2. Halfway through Fabian,Terence,Rachel,Xueqi,Elena left the theater lol. The movie was fking dumb and use lame shock tactics that were hardly scary but were irritatingly loud.

Girls. Make you wonder wtf is wrong with them sometimes. My guess is that they are affected by the you know, pms

2009-09-22T21:23:00.002+08:00

This is a fucking bad time to do this. Physics, Chem, Maths papers over the next 3 days. 1 month 19 days left to A levels. And here i am, writing about upcoming and future game releases that i am interested in. Royally screwed.

1) Aion Online
2) The Secret World
3) Guild Wars 2
4) Mechwarriors Reboot

Oh btw, The Mentalist is a great show.

2009-09-21T23:42:00.002+08:00

Got the best high in my life so far last night. My head got so heavy i had trouble thinking and walking straight. It'd be even better, if it wasnt two nights away from more damn papers. And now theres the freaking Emmy Awards showing. Guess the prelims is a goner. As usual.

2009-09-21T02:34:00.000+08:00

Just finished watching 500 days of Summer. It was an awesome movie, with Zooey Deschanel and Joseph Gordon-Levitt, who looks damn like Matt Heafy from Trivium making it even more so. At the same time, it was fucking sad.

Here's to life. With a can of jagerbomb and relaxers.

"Just happy that you're happy
Just sad it's not with me"

2009-09-19T23:13:00.002+08:00

Finally met up with Junwei today after not seeing him for damn long. Went to the Games Convention Asia with him and cj. Quite boring actually, and most of the cosplayers looked like shit and there was only one hot babe lol. Some fucking losers "donated" a few hundred bucks for some in game items for Granado Espada and one bid $1388 for some shit. Wtf i feel like go smack him in the face, 1.4k for some ingame item? Wtf is wrong the world.

Arsenal is 3-0 up against wigan at 58 mins. Wtf. Although im feeling great that arsenal is owning wigan, everytime i bet arsenal, arsenal loses. Everytime arsenal win i nv bet. Wtf. Screw this. And theres maths, chem, phys left next week. Life sucks.

2009-09-18T22:47:00.002+08:00

PRELIMS. GODDAMMIT.

ChemP3 - gg.
PhysP3 - SHOULD be okay
Econs - Essay was great (I hope), case study gg.

So this weekend will be without the usual studying + lepak sessions at town and clarkequay. Guess i'll have more time to study! Which i undoubtedly wont, until monday. Screw this.

And i wanna watch 500 days of Summer. But i cant find it anywhere. Damn it.

i cant believe im actually listening to a7x

2009-09-07T00:22:00.000+08:00

Can't you help me as I'm startin' to burn.
Too many doses and I'm starting to get an attraction.
My confidence is leaving me on my own..
No one can save me and you know I don't want the attention.

As I adjust to my new sights the rarely tired lights will take me to new heights.
My hand is on the trigger I'm ready to ignite.
Tomorrow might not make it but everything's all right.
Mental fiction follows me; show me what it's like to be set free.

2009-08-24T22:22:00.001+08:00

Fuck gonna be damn broke every week. Gotta save for every sats lepak session. More than $50 blown on a single day every week. But what's money when you enjoy life with your bros?! Fuck yeah!

2009-08-21T22:49:00.001+08:00

And if someone can put a smile on her face, I don't mind, even if the person is not me. Well, maybe just a little.

2009-08-13T22:45:00.001+08:00

This revelation is the death of ignorance, tangled in a state of suffocation.

2009-08-08T11:20:00.003+08:00

The longest hours you'll have in your life
Are the ones you sit through to know if you are right
So I'll wait and pray that I'm wrong
Because I think I know what's going on

You don't always know where you stand
Until you know you won't run away
There's something inside me that feel
Like breathing in sulphur

2009-08-08T00:54:00.002+08:00

Cheebye fuck. Fucking dulan liao.

Hatred shall be my shield.

Fuck.

2009-08-02T22:12:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wonder whether love and pain are one and the same.

And what do you think you'd ever say?

Oh well, whatever, nevermind.

Everything goes away in the end.

Fuck it all.

No laptop= more time to overthink

2009-07-31T23:57:00.002+08:00

Who/What am I but a name in your recollection?
Apparently nothing.

2009-07-30T21:29:00.003+08:00

Pain is an illusion of the body, despair an illusion of the mind.

4 months of having no com on the way soon. Fuck it. CCB MF. Need something to take my mind off this shit while i fucking chiong for the A levels. Night study at school on weekdays so weekdays are settled. I duno what shit i gonna do during weekends and holidays anymore. RAGEEEE

This illusion of despair seems pretty real at the moment. GAHHHH FUCK

2009-07-26T13:56:00.002+08:00

I ran out of cash. Nearly $50 for a "mugging outing" costs even more than usual outings. Went to Cathay for lunch at Astons - $10, studied at Ben&Jerrys - $7 coffee from starbucks, watched Public Enemies - $10, dinner at BK at Plaza Sing - $8, went back Cathat starbucks study some more - another $7 coffee. Plus some money spent on buying drinks, $2 to Cj and some other stuff.

SHIT im gonna be meeting the principal on thursday. I dont feel anything now but i bet i gonna feel nervous like shit on the day itself. EFF IT.

2009-07-22T18:54:00.008+08:00

Spending time in imposed solitude allows you some insight on certain things, though perhaps trivial, as most things tend to be. You begin to get very familiar with an untainted sadness, and those nasty, all consuming mortal contemplations. And you begin to resent those who turn these things into laughable theatrics. But with all these irritations present, i still maintain my stupendously sunny disposition. Having predominantly unpleasant thoughts is just another thing to accept as normality, and eventually becomes part of the blood that fuels you. Its all very amusing. But, in no way does it render you invulnerable to the effects of a bad day. Effectively, most of them damages you beyond reprieve, and concurrently amplified, to much disdain, by the unfortunate product of that most vile form of human lfe: Assholes. But I've managed all this nicely. I mean, i still havent shown signs of insanity. Oh wait.....

-edited version of text written by Jhonen Vasquez

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Hope is first step on the road to disappointment.
Hope in reality is the worst of all evils because it prolongs the torment of man.

Futile is the delusion called Hope. It has no intrinsic values that i can think of other than self delusion. I dont really know if people mean it when they say "I hope i can pass my fucking midyears!" I mean i trust that people are smart enough to not really think that it all works out in the end just because they had "hope" that it would. If people meant "I wish i can pass my midyears even though i know i cant and i just want to feel deluded and think that i can pass so as not to feel upset so i use the word hope for lack of a better word", then fine. I feel thats the most apt way to use it anyway.

BUT, we all hope, at some point or other, even though most of us know that is fucking useless. Because:

Yet it is necessary to hope, though hope should always be deluded, for hope itself is happiness, and its frustrations, however frequent, are yet less dreadful than its extinction.

Because hope is better than no hope even though it may technically be fucking useless, our hearts, which has no ability to process thoughts, unlike our brains, are too fucked in the sense that the emotions/feelings it generates are against our thoughts. What we think and feel are too different. We know hope is useless yet a part of us hopes anyway. Cause we just need some stupid self motivational thing(cant think of words now) to spur us in the face of our enemies.

Fuck i just realized ive been writing a whole lot of nonsense and my dinner just came so i wont continue bullshitting anymore.

2009-07-12T00:19:00.001+08:00

Ouch. Life burns

The good and the bad..

2009-07-01T23:58:00.002+08:00

The Good: I actually feel like studying something!
The Bad: Very night before the day of the exam, and on the bus ride to school.

The Good: Hey! I read this question when i was studying!
The Bad: I forgot how to do it due to mental block or some shit.

The Good: I actually knew how to do the chem questions today!
The Bad: There wasnt enough time to complete.

The Good: One of the best dota game in weeks/months!
The Bad: It just ended; the night before Maths Paper 2.

The Good: Meeting with Pradeep sometime this week or next, sushi buffet the next
The Bad: I SHOULD BE FUCKING REVISING INSTEAD OF DOING SHIT AND PLAYING DOTA/DRAGONICA

K. Time to study Stats. Even though the maximum marks i will prolly get for Maths is the same as the minimum marks - U.

DVP - Humour Maestros

2009-06-27T02:23:00.004+08:00

Pradeep always has the best quotes.

Pradeep Elango at 12:46am June 27

ehhh i think the world spoil already...there's a pig flu outbreak, MJ died, all of us are having problems regarding girls, and exams start day after tomorrow!

Jasper's response was also damn funny to me for some reason...

Jasper Wong at 1:30am June 27
no problems with girls just ignore them.

-From facebook

2009-06-26T00:15:00.002+08:00

3 more damn days to mid years. FUCK im so tempted to go to one of the affected countries just to get the leave of absence from school. Gonna get owned again. As usual.

And btw, Transformers2 was great. Shitty plot aside, cause the movie is purely about gigantic robotic action and megan fox.

2009-06-20T12:12:00.002+08:00

I've lost count of the number of times i have had to remind myself that i got friendzoned. A part of me have given up hope, and a part of me is hoping against hope. Its like an epic battle between good and evil only its not epic and there is no good and evil. And so this ambivalency makes me poison my own thoughts to give up hope and it makes me poison my own thoughts to retain hope. Its like pumping false realities into my head in a vain and foolishly desperate attempt to change actual reality. Probably self deception, but it feels uncontrollable and takes great effort to stop them. It hurts both way since it obviously doesnt change anything and i have to go through that anyway cause i have no way of preventing it. My dreams are now plagued with stupid fucking poisoned images that makes me feel all fucked up. Its worse cause i want to wake up and dont want to wake up at the same time cause i dont wanna dream shit and yet im tired to wake up.

tl;dr - FML

Anathema - One Last Goodbye

2009-06-15T16:12:00.002+08:00

How I needed you
How I grieve now you're gone
In my dreams I see you
I awake so alone

I know you didn't want to leave
Your heart yearned to stay
But the strength I always loved in you
Finally gave way

Somehow I knew you would leave me this way
Somehow I knew you could never.. never stay
And in the early morning light
After a silent peaceful night
You took my heart away
And I grieve

In my dreams I can see you
I can tell you how I feel
In my dreams I can hold you
And it feels so real

I still feel the pain
I still feel your love
I still feel the pain
I still feel your love

And somehow I knew you could never, never stay
And somehow I knew you would leave me
And in the early morning light
After a Silent peaceful night
You took my heart away
I wished, I wished you could have stayed

One of the best atmospheric rock.

Technoboy - Rage (A Hardstyle Song)

2009-06-12T22:02:00.000+08:00

If you could see my mind
If you really looked deep then maybe you'd find
That somewhere there will be a place
Hidden behind my comedian face
You will find somewhere there's a house
And inside that house there's a room
Locked in the room, in a corner you see
A voice is waiting for me, to set it free

I got the key
I got the key

Voices!
I hear voices!

In my head the voice is waiting
Waiting for me to set it free
I locked it inside my imagination
But I'm the one whose got the combination
Some people didn't like what the voice did say
So I took the voice and I locked it away
I got the key
I got the key

Voices!
I hear voices!

Nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be this hard

2009-06-08T10:57:00.004+08:00

Coldplay - The scientist

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh, take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

But tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start
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On another note, St.James Powerstation's underage clubbing event was like SHIT. 22 bucks to go in there to drink 1 cup of coke while sitting around listening to music. I can just do that at home! And it was after 2 hours+ of queuing even after cutting the queue thanks to friends of friends of friends. Well there was the usual funny shits with the flyers, only this time it was the flyerrs + pradeeps 3 others friends who all flew as well! Damn style. But it wasnt worth 22 bucks and a night. At least Farid also didnt go for the extra lessons today. Which makes the 2 of us the only ones who pon the 2 days of which we had extra lessons. Damn nice!

2009-06-07T02:40:00.005+08:00

Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.
Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.
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Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.
Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.
Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.
Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.
Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.
Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.
Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.
Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.Weak.
ITS TIME TO MAN THE FUCK UP.

I have lost the will to live

2009-06-06T11:01:00.004+08:00

If i went blind, if i'd never seen your face again, i already know you well enough that you could still break my heart.

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Cut my life into pieces,
This is my last resort.
Suffocation,
No breathing,
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding.

This is my last resort.

Cut my life into pieces.
I've reached my last resort,
Suffocation,
No breathing.
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding.
Do you even care if I die bleeding?
Would it be wrong?
Would it be right?
If I took my life tonight?
Chances are that I might.
Mutilation out of sight,
And I'm contemplating suicide.

'Cause I'm losing my sight,
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine.
Losing my sight,
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine.

I never realized I was spread too thin,
Till it was too late,
And I was empty within,
Hungry,
Feeding on chaos,
And living in sin.
Downward spiral, where do I begin?
It all started when I lost my mother,
No love for myself,
And no love for another.
Searching to find a love up on a higher level.
Finding nothing but questions and devils.

'Cause I'm losing my sight,
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me in fine.
Losing my sight,
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine.
Nothing's alright,
Nothing is fine,
I'm running and I'm crying.
I'm crying.
I'm crying.
I'm crying.
I'm crying.

I can't go on living this way.

Cut my life into pieces,
This is my last resort,
Suffocation,
No breathing,
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding.
Would it be wrong?
Would it be right?
If I took my life tonight,
Chances are that I might.
Mutilation out of sight,
And I'm contemplating suicide.

'Cause I'm losing my sight,
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine.
Losing my sight,
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine.
Nothing's alright,
Nothing is fine,
I'm running and I'm crying.

I can't go on living this way.

Can't go on.
Living this way.
Nothing's alright.
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I feel nothing. Nothing but pain. All the time. I feel like i want to die. And it hurts. It hurts. Halp.

2009-05-26T23:02:00.001+08:00

Its the only thing that slowly stops the ache....

Poetry or prose?

2009-05-24T02:04:00.004+08:00

Titled: lolomgwtf
cause it gives off the feeling of lolomgwtf. Also, pseudo emo poet ftw!

Theres a warm breeze whispering under pale night skies
My head is shrouded with thoughts, like the moon behind the clouds
Time stands still as one loses himself in this dream-like scene
Wind against trees created dancing shadows that mesmerised
The faint glow of the sodium streetlamp evident in peripheral vision
Such a scene can only conjure an image of tranquility and peace
Yet the darkness seems surreal, like oblivion beckoning me
Fueled by undesired thoughts, there was uneasiness throughout
The sound of silence helps form vision of impending threat
Like the calm before the storm; something is about to strike
One can clearly see the exaggerated, unfounded worries
Surely nothing will happen when all before the eyes is calm
What matters is not what lies without, its what within
My inner demons are killing me, tearing me apart piece by piece
I can only sit and stare as i feel myself sundering inside
I let my thoughts wander, find their way through the helplessness
And as a light drizzle adds to the beautiful picture before me
I find myself unconsciously forming a slight smile between my lips
As i find the answer to what it is that is keeping me alive all these while
Bidding my farewell to the sleeping stars in the moonlit sky
I lay myself down to sleep
My soul reposed on sorted out thoughts, i find myself at peace
If only temporary, but still.

Anathema - Lost Control

2009-05-16T23:21:00.001+08:00

Life has betrayed me once again,
I accept some things will never change.
I've let your tiny minds magnify my agony,
and it's left me with a chemical dependency for sanity.

Yes, I am falling... how much longer till I hit the ground?
I can't tell you why I'm breaking down.
Do you wonder why I prefer to be alone?
Have I really lost control?

I'm coming to an end,
I've realised what I could have been.
I can't sleep so I take a breath and hide behind my bravest mask,
I admit I've lost control.

Anathemas songs are always beautiful.

2009-05-16T00:13:00.003+08:00

Nowhere can a secret keep
always secret, dark and deep,
half so well as in the past,
buried deep to last, to last.

Keep it in your own dark heart,
otherwise the rumors start.

After many years have buried
secrets over which you worried,
no confidant can then betray
all the words you didn't say.

Only you can then exhume
secrets safe within the tomb
of memory, of memory,
within the tomb of memory.

In the real world
as in dreams,
nothing is quite
what it seems.

Vibrations in a wire.
Ice crystals
in a beating heart.
Cold fire.

A mind's frigidity:
frozen steel,
dark rage, morbidity.
Cold fire.

Defense against
a cruel life
death and strife:
Cold fire.

Life without meaning
cannot be borne.
We find a mission
to which we're sworn
--or answer the call
of Death's dark horn.
Without a gleaning
of purpose in life,
we have no vision,
we live in strife,
--or let blood fall
on a suicide knife.

Dean Koontz - The book of counted sorrows (cold fire)

DVP CCK FTW

2009-05-02T14:09:00.008+08:00

CCK with DVPFC. Damn. Nice.

First moment of the game was when dave straight zam the ball to my face and made my specs koyak. Damn you for making my eye and nose hurts. Thank you for giving me new specs. We were all enjoying playing cck soccer as it has been a damn long time since we last had almost full strength playing. Flyers vs Gamblers match was damn funny lol. After like 3 hours playing we had lunch then left. The rest wanted to go play pool suddenly instead of watching XMO:Wolverine so Elijah Pradeep and I just went to watch it ourselves. Hurrr they changed the story like shit and made deadpool look like some pansy. Screw them.

Today my left shoulderblade/back hurts like fuck and i dont even know why.

2009-05-01T00:42:00.002+08:00

Fuck Pradeep played this song just now and made me recall it.

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

Best Poem Ever

2009-04-28T22:58:00.001+08:00

Alone
by Edgar Allan Poe

From childhood's hour I have not been
As others were---I have not seen
As others saw---I could not bring
My passions from a common spring.
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow; I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone;
And all I lov'd, I loved alone.
Then---in my childhood---in the dawn
Of a most stormy life---was drawn
From ev'ry depth of good and ill
The mystery which binds me still:
From the torrent, or the fountain,
From the red cliff of the mountain,
From the sun that 'round me roll'd
In its autumn tint of gold---
From the lightning in the sky
As it pass'd me flying by---
From the thunder and the storm,
And the cloud that took the form
(When the rest of Heaven was blue)
Of a demon in my view.

fuck.

2009-04-24T22:59:00.002+08:00

It seems like when you have not felt a certain emotion that is "essential" or "required", thoughts are conjured by your unconsciousness to make you feel that emotion. Irrational thoughts, independent of your will, subjected to exploitation by our mind to force us to feel a certain way. Much willpower is needed to suppress these invisible monsters. You know that it is irrational to feel this way; you know that you are not supposed to think and to feel this way. Or do you?

The heart that you feel sundering; the numbness in your chest, is it brought about by supposedly misguided imagination? Or is it caused by your subconscious? What you really think and feel? Do you trust your heart or your mind?

Feelings are independent of thought. No matter how one attempts to tear yourself from the imaginary, the reality feels much worse; to know that you cant control your own emotions. Do you then succumb to your own mindgames, to fall onto your knees at the surge of numbess rising upwards from your chest? Everything you try to prevent it seems just so useless, isnt it?

Well then, what will you do?

2009-04-20T23:44:00.003+08:00

Fuck ******* FUCK HIS OWN PENIS. HIS TURN CAN GO BURN IN HIS TINY PEANUTS. he face NO EXPRESSION LIKE A MONK ASK HIm PUNCH HIS OWN FACE. HOW WILL HE EVEN LOOK LIKE WHEN HE FUCK HIS HOMO PARTNER THAT CB BO BALL DICK FACE. MY DRAGON TEMPLE WILL CRUSH HIS WHOLE BODY INTO CHIPS MORE.

A fucking lmao wtf worthy piece of insult by THE ONE whose name shall not be mentioned aimed at the guy whose name is ******* which isnt that unobvious anyway!

Man U - Everton Half Time Update

2009-04-19T23:53:00.003+08:00

Im terribly lazy to update..i feel like i havent got the time to even though i spend the whole damn days slacking around, watching anime, searching for music.

For the past week, Friday was the only decent day, watching Taken and wasted the day with Pradeep at and around Causeway Point. Saturday was fked up, went to school for CCA then we cant get our equipment cause there was nobody to unlock the door for us, wasted 2 hours of my Saturday. Then the event for the day was cancelled some more. Sunday was spent rotting even further.

Tomorrow theres Physics SPA and GP Essay. Tuesday got Maths test. Wednesday got Napfa (I think) Saturday got Parent Teacher Meeting. What a freaking shitty life at school.

You know I really like it
I know I'll always be here
You know it makes my heart beat
You know I'm happy up here

2009-04-12T15:21:00.003+08:00

HOOOOOOOOO! FUCK!

Got 3 Us for my H2 subjects. 2Ds for H1. This means that i got to see the principal. Twice. So it ended up as me having to take retests for Maths and Chem and writing some letter that will explain my so called study plan for the year to come. God damn, i dont think i can motivate myself to study...after ive been slacking and procrastinating work for 5 years plus...

Friday was spent studying for a while at Republic Poly for the Maths retest yesterday with Pradeep..Then it got too boring so we did stupid things, as usual. Looking back at things we did, most of them are quite dumb when you think about it now..not at that time.. BUT, they were still pretty damn enjoyable.

Yesterday had Maths retest, which i felt was also quite shitty. Better than the common test but i dont think i can get 60%. Fuckk. Since soccer was cancelled due to someone being damn lazy, i slacked at home before heading to TAMPINES to watch Detroit Metal City. Wasting time just seems to be part of me now. DMC was great. The lead actor was damn good in portraying the character. And of course, seeing that it is Metal, somehow i felt that i could relate to it. Somehow.

edit: FUCK! I forgot about studying that i forgot that i was about to mention that i forgot about studying for chem retest tomorrow.

Raaggeeee

2009-04-05T14:09:00.002+08:00

What a shitty week. Got back most of my results and currently only Econs got a pass, Chem and Maths got U and GP and Phys still unsure. Fucking sad, i have to take a maths retest with like 40+ people the coming Saturday. "Did you know that we got 99% passes for maths?" "Cause you fucking kicked the people failing out?" I like how you fucking sheeps think. You're damn smart cause u got an A for maths! Seriously, most of the people here fucking fail to think for themselves.

Well, thanks to the people who cared. I love you guys..and girls.

Mel brooks is great.

2009-03-29T15:19:00.002+08:00

Slacked at town yesterday with Pradeep, Elijah, Jasper, Dave, Guonian, Dave and Hongming after movie and dinner. Gran Torino was quite good. The ending was sort of sad to me though. Walked from Dhoby Ghaut to Clarke Quay to Flyer while talking crap and slacking here and there. Damn lucky that i managed to take the LAST 187 home..

Since today no more LAN, i watched Spaceballs! One of the best spoof movie ever!

Dark Helmet: What the hell am I looking at?! When does this happen in the movie?!

Colonel Sandurz: Now, you're looking at now, sir. Everything that happens now is happening now.

Dark Helmet: What happened to then?

Colonel Sandurz: We passed then.

Dark Helmet: When?

Colonel Sandurz: Just now. Were at now, now.

Dark Helmet: Go back to then!

Colonel Sandurz: When?

Dark Helmet: Now.

Colonel Sandurz: Now?

Dark Helmet: Now!

Colonel Sandurz: I can't.

Dark Helmet: Why?

Colonel Sandurz: We missed it.

Dark Helmet: When?

Colonel Sandurz: Just now.

Dark Helmet: When will then be now?

Colonel Sandurz: Soon.

Dark Helmet: How soon?

Corporal: Sir!

Dark Helmet: What?!

Corporal: We have identified their location.

Dark Helmet: Where?!

Corporal: It's the moon of Vega.

Colonel Sandurz: Very good, set a course and prepare for our arrival.

Dark Helmet: When?!

Corporal: 1900 hours.

Colonel Sandurz: By high noon tomorrow, they will be our prisoners.

Dark Helmet: Who?!!

Genius.

Daft Punk is win

2009-03-28T10:20:00.003+08:00

Exams are over!! Now its time to mentally prepare myself to take back the shitty results. Im most likely gonna fail all my H2s subjects. What the FUCK. Damn fking sad. Physics was easy..if i studied.. Wasted like hell.

Celebrations for the ending of exams even though theres still A WHOLE LOT more coming up - Soccer + LAN yesterday. Damn fking fun! That was the first time i played LAN for 4 hours! Left 4 dead is damn nice! One of the best games to play with friends.

Today, its movie at Plaza Sing. I'll be looking forward to chill with Pradeep and Elijah too.

Tomorrow will probably be rotting at home doing nothing. Its damn weird. Everytime we're hoping for the exams to end or the holidays to come. Once it does, we realize that we have nothing to do and hope that school returns back to normal. Then we go to school and see all the work that we have to do and we want holidays again.

Fuck Yeah! Black Clouds & Silver Linings coming out in June..Dream Theater - making awesome music that results in a mix of emotional turmoil combined with the awe of awesome guitar and drumming skills to produce awesomeness

edit: Now i listened to some daft punk and now daft punk is win.

WOOOHOOO

2009-03-22T18:06:00.002+08:00

it was damn fun doing stupid things at town for a night..but it was freaking tiring. So thursday, friday was gone without doing anything productive..study wise..

Yesterday was spent playing soccer at cck before slacking near Elijah's house..came home and did nothing again...

Its fucking Sunday today and the common tests are in 2 days. And im just listening to music and writing this stupid shit here.

Since i cant be bothered to study,

2009-03-19T16:37:00.002+08:00

I decided to make a new blogskin yet again.

Thoughts:
1) Common tests next week. Screw that shit.
2) Having the flu sucks.
3) Dream Theater rocks.
4) Skipped Chem extra lesson today. Dont know if teacher will do anything.
5) Thinking a lot about stuff, intepreting dreams, pondering questions. As usual.
6) Wtf have i been doing all along? Went down the wrong road and now i need to U-turn, turn left, go clockwise, turn right, go straight, drift here, go counterclockwise blah blah -- Complicated crap

2009-02-02T22:50:00.003+08:00

Soo...yesterday was VERY interesting.

Mahjong with Jasper JY and Jarad. Dave, Hongming, Guonian, Junwei, Shihyu and CJ were gambling with cards playing blackjack poker and inbetween. Won $7 at the point where it was Nan Feng. Then Elijah and Pradeep called me to say they coming to Senja to meet me lol. Then me and jasper joined inbetween for a break in mahjong. We contributed $2 to the pot and i won $10 while jasper won $20. The instant he took the $20 which was all the money he instantly said 'Ok lets go back mahjong'. It was damn funny at the time.

Met up with Elijah and pradeep after getting HM to sub me. Omg damn dumb wasted 10-15 mins walking one big round to find each other when they were just next to guonians block. It was freaking funny the moment we caught sight of each other lmao. Walked to the park to chat and slack. Something happened during that time which was like quite an experience for me. INTERESTING.

EDIT: Changed some shit

2009-02-01T11:53:00.003+08:00

So Elijah cant go today. Thus im able to go Guonians house to gamble. It will surely be fun gambling with dvp but then no maniacal laughter from Pradeep and Elijah.

I miss Pradeep quite a bit since the shitty overnight at Pasir Ris Park. Hmmm. Of course ive been quite looking forward to something else...

2009-01-31T22:50:00.002+08:00

Finally played some actual soccer yesterday. Not the best but still damn fun. Cause Jasper crashed PJ just to play soccer with us lol.

Overnighted at daves house till this morning. Took over mahjong for Jarad since he wanted to sleep. First round i was going to win man tai but then Jarad noticed i had xiao xiang gong. Wasted chance to win at least $9.60. Lost $7.60 in total after playing 3/4 pok cause Guonian and Dave damn tired and they went to sleep, which was tanked by Daves hongbao money. Watched some videos with jasper before trying to sleep. Had to sleep on the damn floor after trying to sleep at the table. Damn uncomfortable and cold. Now im fking tired, surviving on 2-3 hours of sleep. Then i think im getting sick again. Damn shitty.

Slept at home for like 1 hour before going out again, this time to elenas house to bai nian. Lol played wii with sally szehim and elena for 2-3 hours. Damn sleepy during that time. Left at 6+ and have been rotting at home since. Watching soccer while fighting against the temptation of sleep. I hoped Jarad placed the bets i wanted. Then additional exhiliration after watching Arsenal win. Now i hope dont sia suay, sekali Arsenal lose then sad like fk.

Hmm had quite a dilemma regarding tomorrows plan. Wanted to go gambling with the usual people at Hongmings house today so i promised pradeep and elijah i would go hang with them tomorrow. Then Hongming say cant cause he got the stupid Chingay CIP shit and they ended up planning to go Guonian house tomorrow instead. Then quite sad i had to give up the thrill of blackjack, poker, in-between and mahjong. But i think hanging out with pradeep and elijah is damn fun also, sure laugh like shit.

2009-01-25T20:53:00.002+08:00

WOOT: Friday - Queensway with dave jasper and guonian to get my new year clothes. Then headed to Orchard for the class outing at 6.30, which started at 8 when we got to Dhoby. Ate there then szehim, aisyah, sally went home. Went to bugis with jon, fabian, rachel, hannah, mengkoon and eloise to waste my time there before heading home.

Saturday - Rotted the whole day away at home playing dota and watching anime, which is damn nice, definitely top 3 - To Aru Majutsu no Index.

Today - Rotted at home playing dota and watching anime again until going for dinner at JP. Ate at Figs n Olives, which is not bad. Preparing to rot at home again.

Damit, i feel damn lazy to update again. It will soon be time to drag the blog back to oblivion again i think

2009-01-22T00:16:00.002+08:00

Spending my days on facebook, soccermanager, dota and watching anime and shit. I think i will most probably only fail maths, maybe physics if im too slack. I think thats not bad considering i study JUST before the damn test.

"Homework?" WHAT HOMEWORK

2009-01-19T20:45:00.001+08:00

HAHA FUCK. Maths review sure fail like a piece of shit. Just as expected. Now for econs tomorrow.

2009-01-18T23:05:00.002+08:00

FUCK LAH. Damn angry at myself. I said i would study and i did only a little. OMG. ITS BECAUSE OF PEOPLE LIKE HONGMING. "Aiyah nevermind lah. Maths sure fail one. I dont care." THEN IT INFLUENCED ME TO DO THE SAME. FUCK DAMN ANGRY AT MYSELF FOR FALLING TO THE TEMPTATION. RAGHHAHHRAHGH!! OH hey look. Time for dota.

randomrantsatarandomtime

2009-01-18T03:15:00.006+08:00

Survived the first week of school in 08S20. It is exactly as what i expected it to be - Little interaction with the s20 people. But, its slowly warming up. Reeeeal slowly. Thank God for the 4 s13 girls if not i will be flying solo all the time. Fuck and i only slept during econs lecture and a few shitty lessons. I wanted to sleep as i was damn tired but then dont know why hard to fall asleep nowadays. It is a minor achievement but i think it wont last long.

Studied at Macs today with Jasper and Guonian. Shit i think i sure fail Maths review test. Played pool after that as CCK was fking cancelled due to SHIHYU falling sick. Fuck i was damn looking forward to play soccer.

Going to finish some homework and study for review test when i wake up. Pretty ironic that we were mocking the j2s for studying so hard like cbs and now we are doing the exact same fking thing. OMG. I think its the first time i decided to seriously study. Even during O levels we were all playing soccer and dotaing i think. Promos was also slack like shit. All pradeeps fault, lmao.

5 centimeters per second. Fuck i watched it again and i ALMOST cried, again. Its a must watch anime imo. Really, pradeep is right. Makes you ponder the meaning of life and whether we are of any real significance in the grand scheme of things to come; the great masterplan. Now im thinking lots of shit again. All pradeeps fault.

2009-01-11T21:59:00.002+08:00

FUCK IT. NEW CLASS. FUCK LAH. Fuck homework i never even write on a single piece of fullscap since school ended and i dont even know what the fuck i have to do. Never did a single thing at all.
AND I DONT REALLY GIVE A SHIT.

I think im gonna hand in blank script for maths review test. I dont know shit about differential and summation. At most fly back to J1. Or better yet go poly. Fucking stupid school.

2009-01-10T03:01:00.001+08:00

PJC > AJC. Thats all i have to say.

Wasted like 4 hours of my life, waking up early to go for AJ open house. I didnt even attend PJ open house ffs and i go for the bloody AJ one. TOTALLY SUCKED BALLS. Lame as crap seriously.

2009-01-06T02:40:00.004+08:00

Yeah went shop at bugis with cj jasper gn and dave. Got a book a bag and a shirt for less than a hundred dollars. I think its an accomplishment. So now i lack shoes and pants. God damit cant find World War Z at the kino there and at wheelock borders. Went to ShawHouse to watch Bedtime Stories. Damn wtf dumb movie. The movie is funny because its dumb.

Caught the fucking flu. My nose feels like shit now.

Im gonna be FZd soon. I think only Junwei know what that means.

Fuck 2009. At first i thought it was gonna be a great year cause i won 20 dollars from blackjack alone. Looks like life is fair. Some you win, Some you lose. BUT IM LOSING LIKE SHIT NOW. Fucking class being disbanded is like the greatest loss ever. So i think after the gambling session at HM house during CNY, im gonna come back home with my wallet full of cash.

2009-01-04T20:35:00.002+08:00

If i could cry, these songs would make me do it:
Metallica - Fade to black

Opeth - To bid you farewell

Simple Minds - Dont you forget about me

Dark Tranquility - The Minds Eye

Equilibrium - Lost in despair

Sonata Arctica - Shamandalie

& some more Sonata Arctica, Starsailor songs.

Seems really fitting at this point in time, since im really feeling FUCKED UP cause class disbanded.

Then shuffle kicks in then all my metal songs start playing. Still, that does not change the lingering feeling that CLASS IS STILL DISBANDED and i am still feeling pretty FUCKED UP

2009-01-04T02:03:00.003+08:00

What a great way to start the year. By hearing news that my class disbanded. SERIOUSLY, WHAT THE FUCK LAH. What a fucking mood spoiler. At first it was not so bad returning to school. Well, hey! Schools not all that bad with people you hang with for a year. NOW? BOOM. Back to square one. Last year, i still got fabian to help out. NOW IM WITH NOBODY.

My non-existent notion of doing my homework just got removed from my mind, if thats even possible.

Fuck it.

FUCK. IT. ALL.

2009-01-02T01:01:00.003+08:00

2009 is gona be a great year for gambling. Just cause i won $20 from blackjack alone at Shihyus house. Overnight there with hm,jy,gn,cj,jasper,elijah,pradeep,dave to countdown to 2009. When midnight struck and there was fireworks and shit we still didnt know until we looked at the tv as we were too busy gambling lol.

Stupid hongming broke shihyu's lamp lmao. Hilariously by doing some stupid actions with the pillow and throwing it at the lamp with his lousy aim and lack of skill. And then Dave is damn sad. He lost in everything he played: poker, blackjack and in-between.

So about 2008:

Class - Unenjoyable without dvp, no talks with cj, no fun with jy and hm, most significantly, LACK OF LAUGHTER with pradeep. Miss the 3e3 days where we sat together and laughed like shit. I cant talk to my classmates like i talk to dvp and it really sucks. But i guess the class is still ok cause they dont really give a shit about each other and i dont really give a shit about them. OR is that just the looks of it..

School - Tolerable as theres soccer,basketball and PE. Lessons suck, work sucks, food sucks. People are okay as they stick with their own gangs and i dont give a shit about them as well. Lucky theres damn lot of swiss people in PJ as well. Dont know how i managed to promote when i slept during lectures and tutorials. Econs lecture 9.5/10 sleeping and others i was just doodling and slacking.

Whats there left of 2008? I only remembered wasting time in school mostly on PW.

There are much lesser CCK sessions and its hard for many people to turn up together other than the usual few. Holidays are getting boring with most days spent dotaing with dvp dota team and outings doing the same usual stuff. Girls never seem to be a part of dvp lol. NEEDS TO CHANGE imo.

Resolutions for the year:

Study hard and manage to get to Uni.

Be more sociable and tolerant of stupidity.

Damn. I wanted holiday to pass so i could go back to school and slack with friends. Now school is starting i want more holidays. Fk it. Life sucks.

2008-12-28T00:03:00.003+08:00

Watched Australia with Dave Shihyu and Pradeep on Friday. The movie was terribly average. Got scammed by the trailers. Didnt see pradeep for a long time before that. That day was damn funny, no short of laughter at all.

Pradeep then called up Elijah and Vincent and the 4 of us went to the 2e3 bbq. Which was absolute shit cause we had to travel to pasir ris from causeway point. 2e3 bbq was totally shitty, only a few people came, like 4 guys and 6 girls. We bought burger king there so we didnt have to pay them money lol. We didnt spend time with the others at all, the 4 of us just ran away to some other corner of the park and ate and talk for quite long. We then went to the RedHouse ( some haunted place) but then it was locked so we wasted our time walking there.

Spent the night there wasting our lives away with 3 girls. Rot like fuck - damn ulu place with no food and nothing to do. Then walked back from that one fking corner of the park back at 4.30am to downtown east for macs before going home to sleep.

WILL NEVER GO FOR BBQ AGAIN. Unless dvp full strength is there.

2008-12-25T23:35:00.001+08:00

Hongmings words of wisdom: Christmas without girlfriend means dota day. And my day is spent exactly doing that. Just that i had a nice dinner, thats all.

2008-12-25T23:35:00.000+08:00

Hongmings words of wisdom: Christmas without girlfriend means dota day. And my day is spent exactly doing that. Just that i had a nice dinner, thats all.

2008-12-23T19:01:00.002+08:00

E4 people went for chalet, thus no dota for me for the past 2 days. So when im bored and running out of things to do, i photoshop. Im more satisfied with this than the other one >.>

Beats, Bass, Rhythmn, Breaks

2008-12-23T00:27:00.002+08:00

Suddenly i got this urge to listen to electro songs again. So today i acquired 30+ songs - Electrohouse, Drum n bass, Breakcore, Darkstep. Not techno shit. Yes theres a difference. Hmm maybe its because i dont feel like thinking anymore. So these songs are now my drugs.

"We are voids shaped by the voids around us.

The world has only what meaning we give it.

Ultimately we are nothing. We do nothing, we say nothing, we mean nothing. We rise from nothing and to nothing we return.

Your faith in humanity has no importance, for humans are not important. It does not matter how bad humans are, for the universe does not care that we are here and will not care when we are gone.

The pointlessness of our existence continues to beg the question of why we exist. I could die tomorrow, and that would be it. I would have accomplished nothing, done nothing, seen nothing, felt nothing. I would have been a parasite to the rest of society, mourned only by those who had gotten used to seeing my face. That mourning would not last long. Life goes on, as they say. People are born, people die, life goes on, and continues to ultimately be meaningless.

I feel that the greatest crime you can do to a person is give them life. To force them into a life of servitude to whatever power there is at the time. Free to do as they choose within the confines of their bodily prison. What's that? You want to be free? You don't want to be tied down to this stupid world in this stupid life? You clearly must have something wrong with your head. Let's give you medication so you can go back to being a good worker bee.

If you live on, you have to get into the tedium of life. You get up, go to work, have your soul siphoned, return home, go to sleep. Lather, rinse, repeat. And then you die."

Not written by me.

But how so true

2008-12-19T00:30:00.002+08:00

Soccer today with the gang. Lucky never kena CIP shit. Lately every one of us has the "aiyah-go late-lah-nvm-dont-care" mentality now all thanks to shihyu who started it. I feel sad for shaiz who came 5 minutes late while i came 1.5 hours late and there was only 3 others there.

Lmao damn long nv play soccer or run, got tired damn easily and lots of cramps. Ate a late lunch at macs where we were the noisiest bunch around as usual. Talk and laugh damnnn loud. Played pool at csc before heading home.

Looks like 2e3 chalet is most likely to be cancelled. Shit, my holidays will continue to rot from now on while the e4 ppl got 4e4 chalet to look forward to.

Life turned better then back to teh suck

2008-12-14T01:48:00.005+08:00

Saturday rocked. Partly because i could enjoy QUALITY music on my phone again after getting new AKG headphones. Freaking 100+bucks.

Played pool for like 3-4 hours at CSC with jw,hm,gn,jy and dave. Daytona a bit then went for dinner at westmall minus hongming. Omg during dinner a group of girls sat 2 tables behind/infront of us. Dave asked us to guess their age for fun then guonian say if we give him 2 bucks then he go ask them. We kept taking turns to suggest dares that were damn fking funny. Seriously fking funny.

Guonian almost wanted to accept one but turned down after we said that he could not return to our seats as it would be too embarrasing; throw our faces like shit. Talked cock with gn and jw at coffee bean before going home.

Then they made me remember i had stuff to hand in on monday, although i couldnt care less. And that theres 1 more month left till school reopens. WTF. Still got damn long. Rot for another month. Fk.

Decisions, decisions.

2008-12-12T00:22:00.003+08:00

Life is about decisions.

My decisions now, headphones and piercing. My precious 80bucks AKG 414P spoiled around october and ive been too lazy to get a decent replacement. So now i finally decided to get one. Lol i found these damn cool headphones by Skullcandy.

Too bad the sound quality is worse than it looks. So either the Grado SR60 or some AKG or Audio Technica stuff. Going burn my money again. At least it will be tons better than some stock earphones that produces really shitty sound quality. I bought these 20 dollar shit earphones that plays sounds at REALLY low volume compared to decent headphones. Wasted my money.Fuck.

Cj and I once considered getting ear piercings together. And he went to have one. Now im still contemplating. I cant imagine myself having one. Cant figure whether it suits me or not.

Life is sad. Fuck. I wish my life would be sucking in US not in singapore, home of the rot. For those of you as faithless in humanity as me, check these sites out. For smiles, http://icanhascheezburger.com/ For laughs, http://failblog.org/.

Hmm. Decisions, decisions

The way we get by

2008-12-05T01:54:00.003+08:00

GREAT time out today with CJ, Guonian, Jasper, Shihyu, Dave, Hongming, Junyan, Jarad, and Junwei, Chaohong, who did not hang with us as often. Makes things a little more interesting i guess.

Had sushi buffet at Cathay with the gang minus hm jarad and ch. Talked damn lot of shit there and laughed like hell. Same ol same ol with them. Never a dull moment even though hm the joke is not there as he wanted to reignite the old flames and reminiscise the feelings of the past.

Then went to play LAN - BF2 and CS. I have to say, its damn awesome to play together in real life instead of over the internet. We could then get to see other's reactions lol. I think i am too engrossed in the game. Lol. I kept shouting here and there and trying to coordinate our team efforts lol. Safe to say, it was a damn great 4 hours spent.

Its great to get together and do shit together and enjoy ourselves instead of rotting at home lol. Hmm.. but i think we all like playing dota together and we also enjoy it a lot seeing that hm is able to provide us with MUCH entertainment no matter where he is.

Hm. We still need big pradeep, elijah, small pradeep to head full strength on the road to awesome.

2008-12-03T19:35:00.001+08:00

You are warm, sweet,a foolish life, the eternal antithesis to the intellect.

Do not think that the intellect despises you people. Do not think that it reveals even a glance of disdain. We sneak after you, we deep fiends, we demons mute with knowledge; we stand far away and our eyes ogle you greedily, burning with a lust to be like you.

Is pride stirring? Would it deny that we are lonely? Is it boasting that the works of the intellect assure love a higher fusion with living everywhere and evermore? Ah, but with whom? With whom? Why, only with our own kind, with the poor, who yearn and suffer, but never with you, the blue-eyed people, who never need the intellect!

2008-11-27T15:04:00.001+08:00

I LOVE THE WOW OT! Where so much awesum and yet so much fail collide in an epic magical cauldron and it asplodes into million pieces of unicorn on rainbows that fly through the stars like an asteroid in the galaxy surrounded by panda with flowers who all sing the love song together because they are so fukin happy to fly for once..

YEAH!

2008-11-25T17:01:00.003+08:00

#showtooltip

/target Dead Blog

/cast [help,dead] Resurrection

/stopmacro

/s REVIVAL!

WoW reference + my WoW char at shatt. Hmmm i need to lay off games more.

Temporary blogskin while i further edit and/or create my own.

Stupid holidays. Nothing to do for damn long. And i just remembered got work to hand in tomorrow. Fuck it. Dont care.

2008-06-22T13:56:00.003+08:00

Havent updated for quite some time. Im too busy playing games instead of studying. And Mid Years coming up in 2 days. WTF. I must chiong econs and chem today and tomorrow liao. Damn it. I thought i would study from thursday on but i got my new laptop then. And then my days were spent playing Team Fortress. Congratulations to myself for getting self-owned soon.

Ok. To sum it all up, nothing eventful since the time i last updated. Nah there are probably some interesting times but im just too lazy to try to recall and type them out.

Btw i find Zooey Deschanel very cute. You know, the lead actress in The Happening and Hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy. Yes. She has a beautiful voice too. She sang in elf the movie. Those eyes are killing me. Damn.

2008-06-14T18:40:00.006+08:00

Hmm so i watched The Happening with quanxiang, terence and jon yesterday. And as expected, they didnt find it to be good. However i found it actually quite nice. Taken from the WoW Offtopic forums,

"If you're not educated or too young to understand real world problems this movie is not for you. You wont truly understand what the movie really means and you'll think its stupid.

However, this is a scary movie in my opinion. No it does not compete with Freddy vs. Jason when it comes to gore, but if you truly think about what is "happening" and the process these people are going through you will find it scary.

I thought it was a good movie but a lot of people expecting a bloody horror movie will be dissapointed."

This is similar to my thoughts. The movie is not "horror" and "gore". You're better off watching the generic horror shows that portray nothing but a stupid girl with long hair that covers her probably fkugly face crawling around like a dog. Wtf is so scary when you cant even see her damn face. Psychological thrillers are the real deal. Okay, so the happening is not the best movie to advocate psychological thrillers. Maybe Signs or Blair Witch Project.. Those movies that keep you in suspense and you keep scanning the whole screen, the background and everything just so you might find "something" lurking around but always to no avail.

An example from Blair Witch Project :
"Can you hear that? It sounds like a baby crying.."
But i can hear no shit and i was like wtf? what baby? And when they run through the woods screaming OH MY GOD!OH MY GOD!THERES A BABY THERE!OH MY GOD! RUN! and i was like wtf? where the fk is that shit and i was constantly scanning the screen just so i dont get shocked when a face suddenly pops out but it never did. These are the best. They keep you thinking that something will happen and you imagine what would happen you keep thinking about it but actually theres nothing

Its like the movie is screwing around with your mind. Need more movies like these imo. Hollywood produces too much crap these days

That said, The Happening is like The Mist. The show is good, until the end. Why does the ending always suck? I hate stupid endings like that. Srsly.

2008-06-11T21:45:00.008+08:00

Everyone knows PETA. People for ethical treatment of animals. Right? Wrong. PETA is a bunch of fked up pieces of shits as i just recently discovered. Now i am against cruelty of animals, just not supporting fking PETA, and i would rather support other animal welfare groups. And heres the reason why, and the truth about PETA. I suggest you watch all 3 parts for full knowledge of their bs. Hypocrisy, violence to name two.

Click here for Part 1
Click here for Part 2
Click here for Part 3

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Random Music Rant: Top 10 Metal Bands in my playlist IMO atm.
In no particular order,
1. Green Carnation
2. Arsis
3. Dream Theater
4. Opeth
5. Kamelot
6. Dream Evil
7. Katatonia
8. Kalmah
9. Dissection
10. Meshuggah

Non Metal , Metalcore
1. Kill Hannah
2. Three Days Grace
3. Lullacry
4. Dearestazazel
5. Protest the hero
6. Mayday Parade
7. Maksim Mrvica
8. AFI
9. Evergreen Terrace
10. KMFDM

Im so glad i got back into Metal.

2008-06-10T21:59:00.002+08:00

Tired. Fun. But tiring. After mapling in the morning yesterday, met up with Jasper, Dave, Gn, Shaiz, Hm, Jy, Cj, Jarad at Dhoby Ghaut to have lunch and LAN since its Jaspers birthday. The LAN was damn fun like shit, playing Battlefield 2. Cj, jy, hm and me on a team versus the other 5 of them. Im proud to say that we had good teamwork and owned the others like 4 games to 2 i think, with junyan being a damn good commander. At about 4,5 + shihyu, elijah and both pradeeps came over to the macs there as we played our game. At about 6, gn, dave and went off. Junwei joined us at about 7 and we had a great time talking funny shit as usual. After finishing dinner at macs, the rest of us excluding small pradeep went to shihyu's house to watch Euro2008 and slack there.

Before the game started at 12, big pradeep , elijah , junwei and i played WoW, watched movie on laptops. Sad to say, i was the only one among them who didnt bring. I went down to watch the France vs Romania match. After halftime, we decided to watch Mr Bean's Holiday as the match was too boring. Had a few laughs from the show and from discussing the retardedness of it. Went back to play WoW after the show ended. Junwei then decided to play his Assassins' Creed while i watched "Superbad" on Pradeeps laptop with him. Damn nice movie imo, damn funny too. After deciding not to watch the Netherlands vs Italy match, we watched Junwei play Assassins' Creed and tried our hands on it. Pradeep and i wanted to pretty much punch and kill everyone on the street just for the lulz. Well we loled when we had to run from the many group of guards and to evade them by sitting between 2 civilians. like wtf.

At about 4.30am, we decided to play 2v2 Worms Armageddon with Elijah and pradeep vs junwei and me. The game was also damn funny. Actually, anything with Pradeep participating is damn funny. "Alvin Lummox is the man! The worm ah, actually." Damn funny, the names of our "main" worms. Elijah's is Bagpuss. Pradeep's is Alvin Lummox. Junwei's is Bacon. Mine is Lady Marmalade. Pradeep was so tired he said Doncrete Conkey instead of Concrete Donkey lol. We stopped at about 7-8 am then slept for 2 hours before heading home. I went to the macs at Westmall to have brunch with shihyu and chaohong then reached home, only to play maple till 4, operating on 2 hours of sleep. Fell asleep on the keyboard so i took a nap till 7.

"Alvin Lummox wont die one ah. Hes the man." *Flies into the water* "Ahaha. Shit lah."

2008-06-08T23:21:00.010+08:00

Went out with shihyu and junwei to orchard today.. Junwei was right. Whenever shihyu comes out to shop he always end up with buying nothing. Out of maybe 5 times we go out only once will i actually see him buy something. We walked around Heeren, Taka, Isetan at Shaw, Wisma and wheelock place.

By 6+,7 junwei went home to have dinner while shihyu and i went to wisma and taka. Bought a shirt at zara then decided to have dinner at 8.30. We went to Breeks cafe to eat as fast food was shitty and the food court sucked. The meal was nice, especially the Iced strawberry & lemon tea. We went to kino at like 8 minutes before the store closed. I wanted to get 2 books but only managed to find one - The Good Guy by Dean Koontz, which is a thriller. I wanted to find The Dark Tower series by Stephen King however it eluded me. So no choice, only went home with 1 book.

Tomorrow LAN party !! Lunch, LAN, Dinner then stay overnight at Shihyu's house to watch Euro 2008 and gamble and shit like that. WITH DVP!WOOT! Junwei would be bringing his laptop (hopefully) and i get to play his 70 Warrior on WoW . SHIOK MAN! Finally SOMETHING to really look forward to during the hols.

"&#^$. Where is my &#$%king food?" by vulgar king shihyu

Loling while talking about Jarad, Mdm Tang and his FHM magazine incident.

The freaking nice Iced strawberry and lemon tea

And the equally freaking nice Dory Fish with lime and chilli sauce

btw, KAMELOT Melts Faces

2008-06-08T01:16:00.014+08:00

Friday + Saturday: Did nothing but dota until night at about 10+. After i got back from bathing, i realized that Jasper,Hm,Jarad,Cj were playing Maple on a private server and jy and me joined them. Quite lol. We created a DVPFC guild. woots.

Oh im emo lololol. "Seeking Love.PST!"

lolwut

Hmm. If Junwei could be contacted during morning, we would be going bugis and orchard to shop for clothes with shihyu. Then monday will have an uber LAN party playing BF2 with DVP(full strength?). Damn ownage. Looking forward to monday.

2008-06-05T21:18:00.003+08:00

Time to update since im waiting for dota..

Tuesday: Went for physics remedial at 9 which i was late for like 30 minutes. Slacked at the back of LT2. Did pw with my group from 11 to 1 then headed to lot 1 to have lunch. Terence went back home to eat so I went with elena, hannah and sze him. Met cixian, sin ting and friends at lot1 as well. They then proceeded to LaserFlair to browse dvds. Stupid place didnt have the nice old classic movies although theres The Shawshank Redemption. They actually stayed there for 1 hour. wtf. Went home to dota some more, not forgetting szehim took my water bottle to "sabo" me and ended up forgetting to return me.

Wednesday: Ate with cj at bpp before going to dave's house with weihong to "do homework". I think only weihong actually did something meaningful there. Cj did 1 question of maths and i did 2 topics of chem mcq before playing dota with dave's com. We then decided to go home to play dota lol. We went bpp to have our dinner at KFC before heading home.

Today: Went back school for like 15 minutes to settle gpp with mr yap. Finally it had a better outcome. Then headed to lot1 for lunch with hannah, elena and terence. Since it was still quite early to head to the cck cage since soccer was at 2 and we ate finish at like 12.40, i went to cjs house to slack first. Played 1 round of dota with hm, jy, jasper and some cs with cj before reaching cck at 3. Still waiting for jasper for the ball lol.

Cck was total ownage. DAMN funny like hell man. Moments of stupidity during the game like missing the ball and funny looking actions. Plus the fact that funny-man Pradeep was there, combined with the powers of hongming, they were unstoppable. During the end of the game there was lightning and everyone was like damn scared. Many of them crouched when they saw lightning and was like "OMG. Oh SHIT. WTF?" when the bright light flashed around us. When we ended, jarad, jasper, guonian, dave and me went to bpp to eat.

It was another time of hilarity and laughter. During the meal we were talking about random stuff then the most memorable one was:

Dave: *points at the japanese fishcake which jarad ordered* "Eh. Naruto."
Jarad: *huh?*
Dave: *Naruto!*
Jarad: *wtf-stare at Dave*
Jasper, guonian and me started laughing at jarads damn fking funny expression.
Dave: "Huh? You dunno meh? Naruto is fishcake in japanese"
All: "Huh?! WTF." LOL
Dave: "That guy eating the fishcake"
Jarad: *obviously bullshitting* "oh yah yah. Eating the tempura. Or the udon"
We laugh again.
Dave: "oh you know naruto .."
Jarad with the stupid ass face: "become gay right"
More LOL.
Dave: "shut up lah you. Itachi he.."
Jarad with the face again: "want to kill you right"
Super LOL.

Freaking funny day today. Didnt regret going man.

2008-06-02T18:39:00.002+08:00

Ok heres to update. Since i have 6 days to talk about, i will use 3 sentences max to describe one day.

Last Tuesday and Wednesday: Went to msia for eco camp, unexpectedly enjoyable. Blackjack + cycling + rafting + taking fruits without permission... + chewing gum! The only bad thing is the VERY unhygienic conditions.

Thursday: Went back sch for PW lessons which i did nothing at all. Went to Bukit Timah to play LAN with cj, dave, junyang and his other friend.

Friday: Met Mr Yap for PW at 11.30 with the group, wanted to eat lunch with them but cant since i had phyics lecture from 12.30-2.30. Played soccer at the cage with DVP, which was totally fun and shit i missed playing with them. Dota with them at night, very fun too.

Satuday: Stayed at home and rot, dota with gang. In house 4v4 rocks. MADBALLS LOL. Fun map to play with friends.

Sunday: Rot more. Everyone decided that they did not want to go cineleisure just for movie and dinner since its like wasting time to go there, might as well go causeway point or something. Dota + madballs some more.

Monday: Holidays are made for us to rot by playing more dota. Seems like i'll be having a pw group meeting tomorrow. Looking forward to something that doesnt include "DOTA NOW AH"

2008-05-30T18:12:00.001+08:00

Shit. Im too lazy to update. Help.

2008-05-26T22:35:00.008+08:00

OMG. Going Malaysia tomorrow. Fuck. I was told i was not with Guonian,Junyan,Hongming,Vincent and Joseph. WTF? Now my mood is totally fked up. FUCK! No more mood to go anymore. I feel like taking a baseball bat and smash peoples faces in. Like. BONK! Seriously lah wtf not with them i will feel so damn shitty i think im gona be misanthropic and shit during the camp. Like the sec2 one. Shit.

On a side note: I love this song - Miserable at best by Mayday Parade
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Katie, don't cry, I know
You're trying your hardest
And the hardest part is letting go
Of the nights we shared
Ocala is calling and you know it's haunting
But compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright
And when we look to the sky, its not mine, but i want it so

Let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes

Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best

You're all that I hoped I'd find
In every single way
And everything I could give
Is everything you couldn't take
Cause nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles away
And the hardest part of living
Is just taking breaths to stay

Because I know I'm good for something
I just haven't found it yet
But I need it

So let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes

Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best

Ladada ladada ladadaoh ohhh

And this will be the first time in a week
That I'll talk to you
And I can't speak
It's been three whole days since I've had sleep
Because I dream of his lips on your cheek
And I got the point that I should leave you alone
But we both know that I'm not that strong
And I miss the lips that made me fly

So let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes

Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable
And I can live without you
But without you I'll be miserable
And I can live without you
Oh, without you I'll be miserable at best
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I'll post about the camp (hope its not as fked as i expect) when i get back.

2008-05-26T00:01:00.002+08:00

I browsed through the memory card from my digicam and found these gems:

LOL. DVP at the top of the hill near Gombak MRT and DVP in sec2. funny shit. Which reminds me of :

ROFL SHIT. I look so dumb. omg. cant believe it. Good times man.

And here are pictures that never fail to make me laugh, or at least a smirk

Ohhh those were the days

2008-05-25T20:25:00.002+08:00

Yesterday Night: Watched mindhunter after playing dota with hm,jy,cj,jasper,jarad,dave. Mindhunter was decent. I love these kind of movies that messes with your head. Not much adrenaline rush as compared to action packed movies but i like the suspense. Totally messes with your head.

Watched Ah Long Pte Ltd. with my sis just now since she borrowed the dvd from her friend. Quite nice a show. I liked the last part of the movie. Quite anti-climax though. Oh well. Gonna catch Van Hellsing later although i watched it already.

Edit:Caught the ending of Ladder 49. I watched it before and it was a really touching show. It tells of a fireman saving a person from an inferno and got trapped. His life story plays out in flashbacks as he tries to escape. Then he accepts his fate as there is no route out and asks his mates to pull back so they wont get hurt. During the funeral there was standing ovation as the chief said :" I am not mourning your life, I am celebrating it." then everyone clapped. Touching for me.

Reflection:
-Dota damn nice and funny when you're playing with friends. I love playing with them. But hardly got any time. Since holidays now i must play more.
-I miss Dewei. Oh fun times we had in class as we talked about everything under the sun.
-Bands that i heard recently which pwned faces: ThreeDaysGrace, Crossfade, Blindside, Trapt, Death Cab for Cutie, Mayday Parade, KMFDM. Listened to more of AFI and the Click Five. THE CLICK FIVE. LOL. I didnt think i would ever listen to them. Straying further and further away from my days and roots of Metal. Oh how time changes a person..
-Um. Not much thoughts. Writers block.

2008-05-25T00:29:00.001+08:00

Ah. Re-re-revived this dead blog after looking at quanxiang's one. I stole the template from him lmao. I loved his blog. Not the oh so common "what i did today" blog but insights into his inner thoughts and the deep fathoms of his feelings. Very interesting read, honestly. I wish i could express my thoughts and feelings as well but alas, im not blessed with the ability to paint a colorful picture of my thoughts. Maybe i could use analogies like i greatly do, but it may be confusing. Oh well.

Dont comment on the layout of the blog please. I know its not dainty and all but hell, a blog is for expression of thoughts not webdesign! Leave a tag if you want to be linked. Link me back if you would, please. =D

2008-04-19T13:20:00.001+08:00

Oh well finally made a blog again. The other time i did one was during sec 1 .. when the blogging craze started. And due to some pathetic people who has an insatiable craving for attention, the blog was left for dead. It was so common at that time to see senseless tags at the cbox that was left by senseless people. Lol. Due to the "sabo" fad i guess. No one was safe from the dynamic duo who spewed out senseless shit like having downed bottles of laxative. Oh well those were the days. It was fun i guess, to laugh at them, thinking they are making any significant impact to us.

Moving on. Does our class seem united? I am torn between two parties. There is the "family" and there is the "left overs". Leftovers lol. Then there is the "three beauties". They do well among themselves and keep it that way so no problem there. I would love to see class unity though. Like in sec 4, where class pictures were a fun and a quite common occasion. Even though i really detested some individuals, unity as a class was almost present. Probably due to CSK.

Ahh so what am i to do? Maintaining status quo is so fail. Tear myself apart from the guys to join Terence in his "family"? or stick with them, having little conversations with the "Bram and Warren" female version? Truthfully speaking i find them enjoyable albeit the noise they make. Totally like bram and warren. oh well. The family is so quiet during their gatherings too. Makes me wonder why Terence would be with them. I sat with them once and was only able to be occupied by playing with my handphone chatting with Junwei on msn using WiFi.

It would probably take some time to adjust better to new surroundings. Like how it took us a year from sec 3 to sec 4 to achieve class unity. Oh well i hope this would pass soon. I hate studying in a class that is so segregated. I loved my sec school classes. Loads of fun.

Probably getting too long-winded now..

TL;DR - CLASS UNITY PLEASE
/quit